It’s time for me to let something out of the bag……
I am pursuing the lifestyle of a freelance photographer. Yep. Doing it!
It’s been rattling around in my head since I was 15 and thanks to the positive people around me who have supported my photos, I decided to have a go at it. For a long time when people would come at me with “You should be a photographer” or “Have you ever thought of doing it as a profession?” I veered away always with the excuse “I don’t want to ruin something I love with a numerical context.” Done. I shut it down.
But really, what kind of person am I to say that? Don’t I read inspirational quotes on the regular that say something along the lines of “Do what you love as a profession and you’ll be happy everyday” I tortured myself with the question, how can I find inspiration in these words and not push myself into my own dream?
So I decided to do it. Before I got laid off from my job I already had one gig lined up (wedding in Jamaica!) and others began to fall into place after that. After getting laid off from my job, I admit I felt very defeated. I wish I could say that I hit the pavement with a clear mind and got right to it. Instead I doubted everything I’ve done and was doing. All the while, deep down realizing the problem wasn’t with me, it was with that job. I needed to find something that fulfills my soul creatively and I know photography always has and always will. I’m still not sure where it will take me but I am so excited to start walking the path.
In the mean time, last week I had the opportunity to photograph a friend and his new wife’s wedding. I had been anticipating this gig since June and had invested in a new camera and felt READY!
I can say that as I begin to edit the photos I am so pleased with it all. It’s made me believe in myself a little bit more.
My camera also takes video (Oh yeah I’m also going to be a film maker!) So as I documented Steph and Jeff’s wedding I couldn’t help but switching to capture film during special moments. I got inspired today and made a short film of their special day. When Steph and I hugged goodbye on her special night, she asked me “So will you post pictures of us on your blog??” I said “If you’ll let me!” she exclaimed “I would Love it!”
SO.. Steph, the pictures are in motion and I hope you enjoy this video… get the tissues ready. You were darling and I am so happy for your family.
Peace & Love,
Also, thank you to my love Joe for everything.